I am sucking air through my teeth so as to maximize volume of air (out of entertainment for me) but minimize noise (out of consideration for new co-workers), remembering when I played Archie Lee Bowman and had to walk like an ape because the director was avant garde.
I am imagining Thanksgiving with white curtains on the front windows and things wrapped 'round the railing of the spiral staircase and a great heaping table and my arm curved into place and candles and maybe some spilled wine that everybody laughs about.
I am building excitement for moving and starting new and not being tied down to a place just because I painted it once, and I am remembering that we still have no mail slot and I have to squeeze around the fan-stand every time I walk through my door and we have no living room because it is filled with bedroom instead and the kitchen floor is too large and therefore dirty all the time and is an unpleasant shade of white anyway and the bathroom tile is hideously old-school-avocado-green and not a slightly-less-hideous old-school-powder-blue and we have no staircase yet and I love staircases especially spiral ones with alcoves at the top that belong just to us.
I am thinking of getting another cup of tea since I discovered tea bags and paper cups and a microwave all on my own on a secret exploring mission of great secrecy and shushness, just because I wanted it to be secret, and also I discovered the bathroom in my searches so now I do not need anybody to show me where it is, even though it is lodged away in a hidden back hallway, next to the tea.
I am planning on how I can revolutionize the way things work around here by doing things like knowing what exactly a use case is, knowing how to draw a decent sitemap, and having a clue about how to describe functionality for a given web page, and applying those bits of knowledge to making specs that are helpful and written in proper English but then being annoyed that I cannot do so right now because I have not yet been here for a full day so revolutionizing things might be just a skootch premature.
I am relaxing because even though I have done absolutely no work except reading some very poorly written User Interface tech specs (being the User Interface Developer these could be very important for me), I have been able to check my e-mail aproximately 39 times and nobody has told me that I cannot. E-mail access soothes me immensely and I do not feel as scared and briefly panicked as I did this morning.