My head is not accustomed to being this full of things.
My first physics exam is tonight. My brain feels like a trashbag that has been overstuffed with oiled sardines, and then tightly squeezed. I keep finding random thoughts squirting out of my head at odd times, like when ke=8.99x109 surfaced while I waited for my elevator this morning. The vertical force on a suspended object is something like T=cos θ/mg, as randomly popped into my head while I was on the subway.
In fact, I am finding it difficult to concentrate on much else, or much of anything, really. I am sort of vacillating between staring blankly at the wall, and feeling vaguely nauseated. I had sort of forgotten this feeling of "no matter how much I prepare, I should have started preparing weeks earlier and now I have screwed myself over." Which may or may not be true, of course, but I will not know until after this test is done and I can tell if I had a tiny fuck of a clue what any of it was about.
A good friend of mine is moving to Boston at the end of the week -- I have referred to her earlier as my awesome HR lady from my last job. She and I met for coffee during my brief study break last night, and, like we have on a few occasions before, talked about our lives changing. I realized that what is odd to me is not that everything changes. I find it strange that everything has a tendency to change all at once.